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Survey.
03.08.05 (8:26 am)   [edit]
Wake Up Call

Well, Hayley, that wasn't the break up I expected. Whatever then. I don't even care about you now, who needs you? Whatever then, you break up with me over some fucking blog entry, you didn't have the balls to tell me over the phone, what the fuck? I like someone else anyways.



Survey, fill it out and answer all questions that apply to you.


First Name- Renee
Middle Name- Not telling.
Last Name- Not telling.
Time of Birth- I was born really early in the morning, my mom was mad.
Date of Birth- Ask Cade.
Were you an ugly baby- Actually, I was very cute.
Height- I'm short.
Weight- I'm pretty fat.
Eye color- I have pretty eyes, take a look.
Hair color- It's red and black.
Piercings- Well, I don't have very many anymore, I took some of them out.
Clothes you are wearing right now- A loser t-shirt, shorts.
What time do you wake up every morning- 7:30 for class.
Where do you work- Nowhere.
Where do you want to work- I wanted to work with Bill Gates.
Where did/are you go/going to school- University of Tampa!

Elementary School

Favorite teacher- Mrs. Barnaby.
Least favorite teacher- Mr. Lobovitch.
Favorite class- Science.
Least favorite class- Math.
Who did you sit with at lunch- My old friends...Tim, Nicole, John, Mike, Amy.
Who was your best friend- Mike.
Are you still friends- I'm still friends with Mike and Nicole.

Middle School

Favorite teacher-  Mr. Richie.
Least favorite teacher- Mr. Toms.
Favorite class- English.
Least favorite class- Math.
Who did you sit with at lunch- Mike, Nicole, Stephen, Ashley, Chris, Anna.
Who was your best friend- Mike.
Are you still friends- Yeah.
Were you popular- I was okay.

High School-

Favorite teacher-  Mrs. Eberheart.
Least favorite teacher- Mrs. Luck.
Favorite class- Creative Writing.
Least favorite class- Math.
Who did you sit with at lunch- Mike, Eric, Anna, Dave, Mandy, Lauren, Pat.
Did you have more than 1 period for lunch- Yeah.
If you did did you have any friends in your period- Yeah, I had a few.
Who was your best friend- Mike and Mandy.
Are you still friends- Still friends with Mike and Mandy.
Were you popular- Not so much.
Were you on any varsity teams- No.
Did you play on any JV teams- Yeah, I was on JV Basketball for a year.

College

What is your major- English.
Do you like your professors- Yeah, they're great.
Least favorite professor- Mr. Hobbs, he's our fill-in.
Do you ever go to parties- Yeah, I love them.
Are you popular- I'm okay.
Who is your best friend- Jess.
Are you still friends with anybody in your past- Yeah, Mike, Mandy and others.
Do you ever see your friends when you go home- Yeah, I always hang out with Mike.


Friends

Who do you talk to most- I love talking to Amanda, Mike, and Jess.
Who do you confide in most- Amanda, Mike and Jess.
Who makes you laugh most- Mike.
Who makes you mad the most- Anna.
Who is the coolest- Mike.
Who is the tallest- Dave.
Who is the ugliest- Nick.
Who is the shortest- Amanda.
Who is the smartest- Amanda.
Any dumb friends- Nick.


Love

Do you have someone- I wish I did, but I'm trying.
Are you gay- I'm bisexual.
Are you straight- Half.
Do you have a crush- Amanda.
How long have you liked or been with this person- Over a year, ever since I met her.
Do you feel like you could marry them- She loves someone else.
Is the future a concern to you- Yeah.
Do you feel like they feel the same- No.
Are you a loser- Yeah.
Who was your first kiss- Mike.
Who was your first girlfriend or boyfriend- First girlfriend : Amy. First boyfriend : Mike.
Do you love anyone right now-  I like Amanda.
Have you ever been engaged- Yeah.
Have you ever been married- Almost.
Do you have any children- Almost did.

Hobbies

Do you like to go fishing- No.
Do you like to play any sports- I like basketball.
Do you do anything fun- Yeah, I go out with friends.
Do you ever go to the movies- Yeah.
Do you collect anything- No, not really.
Do you like to work on cars- No.
Do you wish you had a car- Already have a car...so no.
Are you poor- Kinda.
Do you work for a living- Not especially.
Do you like to drink- Occasionally.
Do you like to smoke- No.

Family

Do you have a shitty family- Sometimes.
Do you they ignore you- Sometimes.
Do your parents approve of your crush or spouse- My mom thinks Amanda is cute.
Were you hard to potty train- No.
Did you ever go to a retarded school because you were retarded- No.
Have you ever seen a family member in action- Ew...


Schedule

Sunday - What do you do on Sunday - I hang out with Jess, we go out for breakfast.
Monday - Class, then I go to the gym with Elise.
Tuesday- Class, then I go for a walk with Elise, Class, See Jess, Class, eat dinner with Jess.
Wednesday- Hang out with Greg, talk on the phone for a bit with Theo.
Thursday- Class, go to the gym with Elise.
Friday- Class, Jess, Class, Elise, Class, Class...Sleep.
Saturday- Go out with Jess and other people to a few clubs.

Do you have a special day for anything- No, not really.
Are you jewish- No.
Why are you or arent you- Ask my family.
 
JESSIE!
03.03.05 (4:47 am)   [edit]
Happy Belated Birthday, Jessie! (March 1st)


Hayley <333333333333333333333 3333

She's doing fine, we're doing fine. She's been busy without a computer, she asked me to let you all know that you can call her anytime you want. It just better not interfere with my time!! I'll be very upset. I love you, Hayley Kramer.

143333 Renee
 
Left!
02.23.05 (3:11 pm)   [edit]
School

I'm slipping, I can admit it. I just suck right now, give me a damn break. I'm so tired of exams, tests and essays that I'm getting so sick from them and I have a permanent brain freeze for awhile. I need Hayley.


Hayley

I miss that girl right now. She's been busy and it sucks. Andrew had to call me to update, lol. She's been so stressed, my poor love. YES, we're STILL GOING STRONG BITCHES. I have nothing else to say.


1433333 Renee
 
YAY! I LOVE HAYLEY!
02.15.05 (11:15 am)   [edit]
Hayley

She gave me the greatest Valentine's Day I could ever ask for. She called me, we talked for like four hours and she sent me the cutest little greeting and she recited a poem for me. It was so cute, thanks baby, I appreciated it so much. I promise I'll call you tonight and we can talk about that issue we addressed last night babe. I'll give you the world.

Friends

Something's wrong with Dan and it sucks. He lost his fiancee and I know how hard it is, I hope he's doing okay. He did a suicidal thing and it's really hurting me. We all love Dan, he's such a gentle and sweet guy overall. He's just like the rest of us, going through life one step at a time. This just happens to be a leap. It'll all be okay Dan, she's not suffering, she's not sick anymore. She'll always be your fiancee, just not here with you, always in your heart. I love you, Dan, it'll be okay.

Family

Fuck FAMILY!


143333 Renee
 
HAYYYYLEYYYYY
02.11.05 (8:15 am)   [edit]

School

I had a fight with my professor this morning, he really pissed me off. He says I get an F on my paper all because I'm missing ONE more paragraph. I told him that was bullshit, he told me to get out and now I'm so fucking pissed, so I picked up his books and threw them across the room. I'm dropping the fucking class.

Hayley <3

I miss you so much hunny, I'm sorry I couldn't call you last night. I had a late night with a group of friends, I know you trust me baby. I miss you so much and please forgive me. I'll call you tonight and we'll talk about everything. Guess what? I'm sending you something for Valentines Day, I hope you like them. You'll get them Monday morning, early. :)

Friends

Amanda -
I heard about your accident from Andrew. I'm hoping you're okay and I hope no serious injuries occurred. I'll be thinking about you. <333333

Daniel - I hope you think clearly about everything you talked about last night. It isn't worth killing yourself over, everything will be okay for you. I promise.


Renee 143333

 
Support, WHAT SUPPORT?
02.07.05 (6:18 pm)   [edit]
Amanda and Jessie's friend Paige sounds awesome.



Hayley

I've been hearing a lot of criticism lately about our relationship. It's okay, I promise. It'll all get better from here, all problems will disappear if we make them. They can either accept us baby, or lose us. I'm not losing you for anyone who can't even believe in us. I believe in us, I know you do, I smile for you. I promise I'll always smile for you. The bad times are only a bump in the road from here, I see everything beautiful, everything beautiful in you. It'll be great, everything will be great. You'll do great tomorrow, I promise. Good luck sweetie.

Friends

You're all beginning to make me question just how loyal you are. Nobody thinks I'm really into women, I've always been into women, I had a crush on Amanda the whole time I was on tblog but she has a girlfriend, hahaha now you know Amanda. I hope you'll all support Hayley and I.


14333 Renee
 
Whatever!
02.06.05 (9:58 am)   [edit]
School

Still great, passing, passed my exams, did everything correctly. Did great on my projects and I'm still working on another.

Hayley <3

It's going great with Hayley, I can't wait until she calls me tomorrow morning to wake me up for class. She's good like that! Aww, Hayley has such a sweet voice and she has such a cute giggle. She does! Don't let her fool you! I'm NOT running back to Theo contrair to your beliefs, I'm happy the way I am now, with Hayley, caring so much for her and knowing she feels the same way I do. I also know she isn't going to haul off and cheat on me at any given time. She calls me when she says she's going to, she's faithful and she's just HAYLEY. There's not a HUGE age difference. She's 17, I'm...not that far off. I'm happy I found her, well happy we found eachother. I'm glad we hit it off the way we did, who knew we'd end up together. Hayley <3 Call soon!!

Whoever The FUCK James Thinks He Is

You know what Andrew, I'm not even going to go into the fact that your boyfriend may be innocent to you, but a complete dickhead to everyone else. Then..I do love how he ends his comments with a "Nice To Meet You" routine. I'm not going to give Andrew any shit only because that's his boyfriend but I'll tell you what, I'm not going to hate James, but that was uncalled for. He doesn't know me, he doesn't know how I feel about Hayley and how I am. Good day, James!


14333 Renee
 
<3
01.31.05 (4:41 am)   [edit]

School

I'm doing great in school, my professor is awesome. He's having us do this weird project of nature. Why? I have no clue. But anyway, we also have this other experiment I have yet to finish. We're supposed to see how likely we are to get ahold of certain things, guns, cigarettes, marijuana from random people. It makes you wonder, I wonder if I'll even get anything.

Hayley

Yes, I'm seeing Hayley now. We've been together for a few days, it's finally official. I'm VERY happy right now. I mean, anything can happen, but I don't want it to. We've spent a lot of time getting to know eachother better, hopefully things will set off just right and stay that way. Finally...no more Theo in my life. <3 Hayley <3

Life After Theodore

It's been different, but nice. I never thought I could do it, I never thought I could be without him for so long. I'll always miss him, he still has a special place in my heart, I just can't do it anymore. I'm always running back to him after he hurts me time after time. I always forgive him, I always get hurt, I hated that. It's time it ended, we were well over due. He ruined it, he took advantage of the fact that I'm so nice, that I loved him and I wanted him in my life, so I always forgave him. Finally, that changed. I have Hayley now, who treats me so much better, doesn't degrade me and cares for me...for who I am.

Amanda's Friend Kyle

I know he isn't my business, but he's a retard, he IMed me like a million times last night asking me how big my tits are. Maybe he should grow the fuck up. He told me he has a 10 inch dick, which I highly doubt. If he did, don't you think he'd be a little more clever on trying to get ladies, or don't you think he'd have more action than harrassing me online to get a piece? Thinking with the wrong head, though I'm sure the brain operating in his penis is larger than his brain in his own skull.

Family

My family knows about Hayley now, I admitted it without even being questioned since all we do is talk on the phone and my parents can always see who is calling me through my phone bill. They weren't mad or anything, I'm glad.



143333 Renee

 
I Won't Walk Alone Forever.
01.24.05 (5:36 am)   [edit]

School

Lonely, very lonely. My friends and I have had a hang out week, and I've been slipping on my homework, you'll see why once you read another section of this, but I'm slowly starting to pick up again.


Theodore No More

We're done, over, finished. We broke up on Wednesday. He should tell you why, but doesn't use this. I'm not running back to him this fucking time, he's a lying cheating asshole. I'm so pissed off, sorry. HE CHEATED ON ME WITH ANOTHER FUCKING FRIEND OF MINE, THEN PROCEEDED TO GO TO A STRIP CLUB AND MET WITH A STRIPPER AFTERWARDS AND HAD SEX WITH ANOTHER CHICK. IS HE FUCKING STUPID? Sorry, I'm THAT fucking pissed off. I'm DONE I'm not even going to think about it, he's a fucking asshole and I kicked him out of my apartment. I'm not doing that again.


Hayley...

Heh, heh...We've had our fair share of flirting as single girls...I like you, Hayley. You've grown on me since the day I dumped his sorry ass, and you dumped your asshole's sorry ass. We're single! Yay! <3


14333 Renee

 
I HATE WENCHES!
01.18.05 (11:54 am)   [edit]
School

Looks like I'm home and going back to school, yay. I had my classes today, it wasn't so bad. I have a shit load of homework though, I'll live. Does anyone like Anthropology? If so, take my homework and gladly do it for me. Thanks!


Theodore

Ahh, the love of my life. I missed him so much. He's doing wonderful, thank you God. I'm so glad he loves me and gives me the time of day since he's so fucking sexy. I know, you all think I'm nuts. Our car needs to go into the shop for some brakes, which sucks. Theo WAS supposed to take it today, he forgot, AS USUAL. I'm so mad at him, but I love him so fucking much which makes up for it, he's pretty damn lucky there. He'd be screwed. Even though his so called 'friend' Angela is a fucking whore and she better stay the fuck away from him. I'm so tired of that bitch. She knows we're engaged, we've been together for so long, then she's trying to hook up with him and spend all kinds of time with him. Fuck off you dumb wench, thanks.

14333 Renee
 
I Can't Get Over It..
01.11.05 (7:11 am)   [edit]

Jason

I found a card from Jason from like a month before he died. It made me really sad, I don't know. I still can't cope with the fact that he's been gone since August. He was so cute...so nice...so Jason. I don't know, I hope he's happy where he is, I hope whatever he's doing that he watches over me and smiles as he does it. I hope he sees just how much I miss him and everyone else does. I'm sure his family misses him a lot...I'm sure everyone still feels the weight from it all. I do just about everyday and I didn't even know him in person, I just know he made me feel better about myself. I don't know, I just can't stand not talking to him anymore. I can't stand not hearing his voice, I can't even stand not picturing him alive anymore. I would have been happier...not knowing. So many have left us without a word, it made me feel like they had lives to attend to, a computer loss, or...just something that didn't make the weight any heavier, not that I'm making him feel guilty in death. That's not right...I guess it's a lot I still have to get used to. I hope he thinks about me, I hope he thinks about everyone else...I miss you a lot, Jason Lee O'Maley. Take care...


Theodore

I finally told him about Jason, he thought it was another guy I had feelings for. I had feelings for Jason, on a much higher level. He was a great friend you know, I just hate not having my friends. Theo doesn't understand loss, he loses somebody and he just ignores it. I can't ignore anything, I can't wait until Theo can hold me again and let me know it'll be alright.



In case you didn't know, Creed - Higher, was Jason's favorite song. It reminds me of him...everyday. It also has a role for him.



14333 Renee

 
I miss him.
01.09.05 (6:22 am)   [edit]
School

Is it wrong of me to be thankful to be going back to Florida soon? I miss my friends so much, as well...as...you guessed it, Theo. Theo has his own little section, so there's no need to stress how important he is to me. I can't believe it's a new year, though. 2005. I also can't believe it's almost the end of my freshman year in college..It's strange. I remember just moving into my dorm room at college, then moving out to live with Theo, now I'm getting married in almost two months. Man, I miss Florida. The warmth...compared to this snow and cold, fuck that.


Theodore

I love my man. He called me really late last night to tell me that he misses me so much, he knows I miss the living fuck out of him. How could I fucking not? He says he's doing okay by himself, that's good...I'm afraid to leave him by himself for a few weeks, I hate sleeping alone. You know, when you get so used to sleeping with that person, their warmth, their rhythmic breathing, the slight snoring, the tossing and turning...waking up to see them everyday. His smile that brightens my day, you usually miss that stuff. I miss his warm hands in mine, how we always disagree and fight while we play video games. I swear he cheats on everything! He always has to beat me, I beat him maybe twice and when I do...he flips out. MEN! He's so cute. I miss the sex especially, my god. I'm dying over here without it. Whoever is reading this, I have sympathy for you, you're probably rolling your eyes. Ha.


Family

Another stress factor. They're driving me insane! I can't stand being here much longer...Renee do this, Renee do that, RENEE I NEED YOU HERE! RENEE PLEASE DO MY LAUNDRY! It's like they want to drive me away after begging me to come here and be with them. Anybody want a family? TAKE MINE!



14333 Renee
 
Back, yet again.
01.04.05 (1:10 pm)   [edit]
So, I already updated under xanga. It's time to update for tblog, where I'll be residing from now on, along with most others I assume.


School

I'm out for the holiday, I go back soon. I'm excited to go back, since I miss my friends at school. I'm passing everything, I'm sure you're all proud of me. I deserve some fucking credit in this life.

Theodore

I love him, we're getting married March 10th of 2005. If you want all details, read my xanga, I don't feel like writing everything. 



14333 Renee
 

Creed - Higher

I will Always Remember You

Jason Lee O'Maley

R.I.P 8/7/04

Can You Take Me Higher...